Poem: The Things I Regret Forgetting

I recorded “The Things I Regret Forgetting” just a month after starting this website with the intent of sharing it here. On a whim, before posting it, I submitted it to a literary magazine, and they accepted it. It appeared in The Scarlet Leaf Review last December.

I recently read this piece during the Open Mic at the Wyoming Writers, Inc. Writing Conference. It was the first time I’ve read my writing to such a large audience. My fear of crying while I read the piece almost prevented me from participating, but as you either know, or will learn about me, when it comes to writing, I refuse to let my fears stop me. The reading went better than I could have hoped. No stumbles, no crying, and I didn’t die.

“The Things I Regret Forgetting” has been on quite a journey. It can now be found in my poetry collection “Origami Stars and Hot Air Moon” published by Winter Goose Publishing.

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17 Responses

  1. What a sadly beautiful piece. I love how the last eight stanzas are all numbered ten to show how the “I” in the poem can’t move on.

    Congratulations on getting it published, but especially on your successful reading.

    • Mandie Hines says:

      Thank you so much! There is the burden of carrying regrets after someone has died, whether they are even real things to regret or not is difficult to say, but their weight is the same.
      I am relieved the reading went well. Hopefully the next one is a little easier.

  2. Eccentric Muse says:

    Mandie, this is a masterpiece! Yes, a masterpiece! 7 & 8 were so deep and your voice made it all the better to listen (& read along).

  3. Emotional and thought-provoking poem, Mandie…you’re much braver than me for getting up at open mic…I haven’t had the courage to do that yet. Congratulations on getting your poem accepted, too! 🙂

    • Mandie Hines says:

      Thank you, Scarlett. I’m not sure if I’m all that brave. I was so anxious before going up. My mouth was dry and I wasn’t sure it would even work when I went up there. After I was done I shook from the adrenaline.
      I have to thank my writing group for getting me to a point where I could even force myself up there though. One of our members has us read our work to the group, and that used to make me just as nervous as reading in front of that huge crowd. So when I went up there, I tried to imagine I was just reading to my writing group.
      Recording my stories and poems for this website also helped. I think all those smaller things prepared me for that larger step.

  4. Spectacular, especially when I listened to you reading… the way you varied the tempo and how you used the line length and the number of the verses (can we ever go past ten?)… the passage that caught me most was:

    cadence of your speech
    tiptoeing across my skin

    • Mandie Hines says:

      Thank you for taking the time to read and listen to this piece, Björn. Of the pieces I’ve written to date, it is probably the most personal and important piece to me, so it’s nice to have people appreciate it.

  5. rgayer55 says:

    Like Bjorn, I really enjoying listening to you read and following along by reading. A very sorrowful piece. I’m glad you were able to share it at the writer’s conference. I know it touched others. It certainly did me.

  6. hardboiledop says:

    Excellent work! Very powerful!

  7. Christy says:

    Truly powerful and in its own way gave you the power to move forward and share it first for a group of trusted friends and then, how very brave of you, in front of strangers. I’m betting many were choking back tears. Thanks for sharing this and helping others with their own journey through grief.

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